Watching Girls

I am so hooked on HBO's Girls, OMG ....reminds me of when I first moved to Vancouver. Tonight I am waiting for the 9 o'clock ferry to arrive at Horsebay. Rob is on it and is staying the night. I miss him and want to be close to his body. I feel really sexy right now in bed wearing a tank top and Victoria Secret Bra and thong. I love this set. I bought it for Grant in Vegas except I do not think he did liked it. My mind is full of so many thoughts. My apartment feels dark and happy. Someone has their music to loud and hear the base through my floor. 

I felt the most amazing yesterday on the massage table. I was so relaxed I felt like was dreaming and did not have a care in the world. Everything felt blissful, my muscles felt so relaxed. 

This evening I am missing Paris. I want coffee, fancy panties, little desserts. Walking on cobble streets. I want to smell the old world. Travel drift away from this life. 

So I turfed Phase tonight, he waiting and did not confirm plan. He suggested seeing a movie in North Vancouver. I felt annoyed and did not want to see a movie. I didn't want to go home alone and watch him drive away and go poof....I didn't want to feel uncomfortable. So I told him I felt really awkward about the movie thing and I didn't like the last minute plans. He said fair enough, he was feeling off the last couple of days. So...I deleted his message and decided to try something different. I don't want to drag this out. It doesn't feel good for me. I feel uncomfortable. I guess the dating coach does not have all the moves. 

Grant texted me on Thursday and I delated him too. I have had enough .... he crossed the line. I think I am going through a man cleanse. 

So here I am alone in my room watching Girls. And I love it. I feel I am becoming whole again.