No more sad little girl posts...crying about men and lack of self-image. I am putting the sad little girl in the coffin and putting her to rest. That story is dead...and I am no longer...going to tell myself these nasty things in my head. I am going to live with out fear and put myself on centre stage. Time to star in my own show and why not I am a super star...Here is to courage and stepping up.
After a weekend of crying and watching Oprah...I found myself..chanting a new mantra...and banging a new drum...yup...I am worth it. No more letting men devalue me....and taking from me. I still have moments when the sad little girl wants attention but I shut her down with my new mantra...I have tools and it was always in side of me. I can ...do it...I will do it...be brave...So I am back to my life plan , I was off track for a little bit, although I can embrace this relationship has pushed me to look deeper at family of origin problems. In the last weeks I have watched them creep up into my relationship and make a mess. Most of the angry is directed at my mother instead, I found myself angry at my lover. At this moment I do not know where our relationship stands. I find myself leaning back trusting myself and my intuition. This space is a good thing...at least for me. Although painful and I cry, it is pushing me to progress and find forgiveness. I am ready to forgive to my mother. I am ready to let go...I am tired of carrying this angry and fear. I am ready to be fearless...and let go. I am ready to give intimacy a chance...and let someone know me. My heart feels alive and light. I am hopeful love will come into my life...and the right man will step up. I deserved to be loved. I deserved to be treated and valued.
List of Goals ...
Pass CFA
Apply for New Jobs
Create a space for love
Forgive mom and dad and elizabeth
Let go of my lover, he might not be able to step up and I am ok with that. The right man will
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