Being here in my tiny apartment, I feel shame...deep down inside. I want to not feel this way... I feel triggered by an angry stranger's words Why do words from a stranger cut so deep and why do I take them so personally. I silently remind myself nothing others do is because of you. I guess this morning I meant to practice this agreement with myself. How will someone else's negative words affect me .... will I let someone else shame. And why did this trigger with me....why I am suffering for words that have nothing to do with me.
I love yoga and the most wonderful sound was coming from the studio. When I walked in ... the XX was playing...it melted my heart. The memories of seeing them live in June came back to me and I felt so much peace in my core.
Changes are coming...and I kept counting down. I can't believe I am leaving so soon...I keep checking flights to Central America. So many choices ....
I addicted to chicken at Nando's ... I eat it almost every week. Today was a good day... and it was pay day which my bank account badly needed funds. I sent my taxes to get reviewed so I should be receiving some additional funds soon.
Over all a couple positive things happened today, I loved yoga and hearing the XX again. I bought the Coexist album on Itunes, had chicken and veggies tasty, payday, packed my bags for the island. I have enough cash for coffee tomorrow morning on the way to work. Today simple things bring bliss.
PS I am wearing my glasses while writing this. I feel very blessed to have this blog as a record as my time on this earth since 2005. I can only hope it will help my family understand I was happy and loved. And I enjoyed life...if they ever questioned this.
I think the revolution will happen south of Vancouver...the revolution starts Nov 4 ...
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