I was struggling in the water swimming during the final minutes of meditation. I was swimming the water was so dark around me...and I stopped struggling...first I thought I was drowning...sinking but I came up. A part of me died tonight and let go. Waves tumbled over me...washing me clean of emotion...I am no longer connected...I am no longer emotionally invested. I feel free....but present...
I asked again to open my heart...open it deep down inside...so I could feel all the emotions...tumble over my back......
After struggling with my friendship with Stacy over the past week, I breathed and let go of control. I can't control the situation and the struggle for me is over. I feel peace and have limited emotions, the past is gone...and feel very present. I will not judge her and or her decisions. I will ask for help when needed.
After class the street lights had a glow...the kind the people see in movies...when the scene is about get happy and joyish. I feel peace in soul ...and glows tonight.
It's a fall monday little rain drops and cold chills... this time of year reminds why I moved...away from the north. Although the coldness is slightly depressing nothing is as depressing as the great canadian winter and I am lucky/blessed....my time in the north is over and completed. Some places our souls do not want to visit again.
My mind feels simple...small thoughts...little waves create small changes. ..
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