I count every minute of the day. Mentally today I am a wreak waiting patiently for a Revelation. This morning while running my body fought through the first 15 minutes, waking up and slowly easing into the last 40. I hated it, every minute of my run this morning. The sweat, the smell of the gym, the fatigue. The world is so small at the gym at 5:30, it feels like a small portion of the population is awake while the rest is still sleeping. All united in the women's change room.
I had so much difficultly working today, I was looking for a distraction and looking to escape. Waiting for 4. I no patience for paperwork and other small tasks. I ached to be away.....my mind is busy but empty. I am exhausted. I have 60 days to create change. I have 60 more days left in Edmonton and 30 more till Victoria. I am avoiding the winter and cold. When it is really cold I think of the cathedral in Cologne. It was cold and snowy and damp. I sister and I circled the cathedral serval times before finding our boat on the Rhine. Feet wet and cold in the snow. The city was beautiful and the food amazing. I wish had a put a lock on the bridge. My soul smiles. I am going home soon. I am going back to my love.
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