Please, you can't wait until life isn't hard anymore to decide to be happy, life is just to short.

I was going to delete this but I can't stop thinking about how we are half way through life, a client called to say good bye this week. He was using MAID to relieve himself of long drawn out death. All of his family had gathered around him to celebrate him and say good bye. I began to think .... why do we celebrate very few adult events after the age of 20 ... it feel limiting and sad. I don't want to celebrated on milestone birthdays and death. I want people to know we should celebrate them all the time. Over the last two years .... and coming out of covid ... people are divided into two camps, those who want to get back to life and those who want to continue with covid rules. I'm not sure who is doing a better job of feeling and living in the moment. I know it's time to get back to living and feeling life again and it's to short to wait to be happy. If someone reaches middle age and still isn't happy .. I wonder when and they will choose to enjoy the moment. Happiness isn't given ... and its not a right. It feels like 40 is finally the optimal age to feel happy at least in my life. I finally have financial stability to life and enjoy life, job stability and ability to grow my own human capital. I no longer feel the need to chase academic goals, high learns feels expensive and unproductive. I have no interest in paying top dollar for professors to take time off to research topics which are not benefiting the masses only a small amount of equally invested professors of such topics. I am interested in grow within in entrepreneurship, economics and education of women within finance. 

Six more weeks till Portugal - I am truly excited and nervous. I am rebooting my health and I am slightly scared. I need to reconnect with myself and grow.