I arrived back in Canada after spending my vacation in Chinadega department. It feels good to back in my bed. I could not believe how soft it was last Saturday night. For this trip feel blessed.
I do not know what I was excepting when I signed up for a surf retreat in Nicaguara. I expected waves and sun maybe meeting a couple of new people. But I learned so much about myself and my body. I feel humbled and my heart wants to give back. This week at work...nothing seems to matter as much, its not in the bigger picture of world. For so long I thought my life was defined by faxes, emails and making clients money. There is something more for me out here...I want to give.
My heart is full of joy and peace. I feel comfortable with myself with a glide back into life in Canada. For a week I had no wifi ... no first world issues. Each day I faced a new fear, somedays I was afraid to get out of bed. I was afraid because I did not have control. No control over my daily activities ....I realized I am a control freak. Seeking to much approval from others.
The second day of the surf retreat I was sick with motion sickness/vertigo. I lay in bed helpless but I trusted people would help. So many strangers reached out to help....give me medicine and listen. It's amazing how much we give. What the human spirit can provide to each other.
The waves were so powerful but it was refreshing to be in the ocean.
I can't describe what happened to me last week but change took place. I have been trapped so long in a office sitting ... in fear watching for emails ... not living...not feeling good...
I promise myself I will be kinder to my body, eat better, I promise I will be kinder to strangers. Show love each day. Find compassion ..... find adventure .... be ready to scared. but I am always loved.
PS other trip highlights....volcano boarding...running through the airport in st pauls. Joe the Fed Ex pilot who knew the plane would land so I would not miss my flight to YVR. The man with sign in the Manguara airport for Cherry from Canada! Luis the taxi driver. The man who sat with me from Salt Lake to Atlanta ....who never flies the red eye..only for a very special friend...thanks for the stories.
The boys going south ....from Calgary... maybe we might surf together in the future.
Simple Wave
I feel the waves
White water rushes over my head..
Warm water soaking my body
My head spins
Boys going south, Girl going North
Parting from Manguara
Waking up November 11 with vertigo
The beauty of help from strangers
The release of knowing we all loved
Find compassion Rumi
Find love
Meet me with adventure, I'm ready to let go
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