The Bittersweet

The bittersweet taste of it...the passion, the day and moving on. The end and changes are coming. I am flushed with new energy. For the first time in a while the sky seems clear and I am excited about the future. I am started to rework my resume for new job application. I am excited inside at the changes that coming.

I finally finished my exam, leaving the exam centre I relieved however I know I did the best I could. I am proud of the all of the information I learned over the past 6 months. For this ... is the best reward and I feel more confident. I feel peace. My wrist still ache...and I think its time to return back to yoga. I have missed my practice over the last 4 months. My body now feels twisted and sore.

I am feeling more present ...more active at work. Something has come alive in me...something wants to push again.

Last week was our Christmas party at Hy's ...it was a fun celebration. I drank to many gin/tonics and I could not sleep. I drank at coffee at 11 pm which kept me up till 3 my mind so alive. Each day of the season counting down till christmas. Each day stronger and more present.

Today I am unclear about my status in my relationship, today it's me questioning the merit of having a long distance partner. I feel away from him....I can't reminder his touch/face. I can't reminder why I signed up for this. For this... reason I feel colder and distance. Today I might choose to be alone...