My first Christmas back in Vancouver since 2003 and season feels wonderful. I was walking up Lonsdale looking at the mountains and I realized I live in the one most beautiful cities in the world. The mountains are framed with snow and the lights from the ski hills shine bright into the night. I am awe of the beauty of the land and how lucky I am to be here.
Yesterday my parents came to visit. My mom disclosed secrets and I was not surprised. Sometimes she is more human than I think. Parents are not really super heros. Mosty I feel angry at my father. Angry at him for being a miserable person in my own life/childhood. He is aging very rapidly and I believe is slowing losing his mind. The person he once was is slipping away .... however this is his choice.
Things feels awkward between my partner and I. It feels like forever since I have a seen him and Edmonton feel so distance and like a life time away. I can't remember him or why I am in this relationship maybe he feels this way too. It would be awful if we both gave up .....
This year I am looking forward to changing my job and traveling more. This year is the year of change!
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