Last night after reading the power of now, i felt into the deepest sleep. I woke up at 1 am fully rested and fell back asleep. When my alarm when off at 5 am I was ready to run. I had an amazing run! It felt so so so....I was moving so quickly. It felt great! I feel so lucky, because other people will never know this feeling. I know today was going to be a great day!
The morning was slow at my desk...markets open and my screen was green till about 8:30 than the screen went red. Red isn't always the best colour to see in the morning. Maybe we are use to the volatility in the markets. Go VIX! I have been pretty good with my budget this week and not over spending!!!!! and making my lunch at work! Might have the new mac book paid off next month. I still need to file my taxes.
I feel very full of light and love and the stress and disappointment of my birthday is fading away. This is in the past and not happening anymore. I am excited about spending time with Stacy my life is strange this way....one friend leaves and another one comes back. I told her I wanted a birthday cause Hafsah never showed up mine!
I am super excited about yoga tomorrow and Saturday! It's great to be back into my routine and my body is finally feeling strong again. I have worked hard to lose the weight I put on last fall! I never imaged I would gain 10 pounds again, but there I last November tipping the scale at 153! Today I weight 142! I feel awesome less heavy and bloated. I finally feel like me again and I love 31 and no longer feel lost. I have art history for this....Leonardo and Raphael gave me so much courage to go forward and be brave. I found life again! I am still going to therapy, I am working through all things Chilliwack. I have arrived at a place where I can finally talk about my childhood and the exclusion I felt. I felt very lonely there and I also did not reach out to others....no one knew I felt so bad. It's finally ok...to let it go..and rest.
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