Beautiful Morning

This morning I woke up and everything was peaceful and beautiful. I slept well last night which was refreshing, the last couple of night ... I have woken up several times. This morning I choose to have a beautiful day and feel good.

Yesterday at Foundation Flow ... I felt so in touch and connected with my body. The teacher was amazing ... I started to connect with my breath. I felt good about myself inside and out. The more I choose yoga the more life chooses me.

This week has been a little lazy but I can not wait till the Canada Day Long Weekend. I have an extra day off .... and will not be at work till wednesday. I am trying to get caught up on my work ... I feel almost there.

I'm dreaming in my mind of a new job on the island and a car. I feel both coming together soon.

Tuesday I was grumpy.... and annoyed ... I started writing my top ten bliss moments in my life. The moments were I felt truly present and alive.

1# Thursday after in Nicaguara ... Volcanos, Ocean view yoga.... beautiful Leon, Sunsets perfect afternoon

2# Drive from Portland to San Francisco, Feeling free ... driving through Red Woods... finally finding the ocean. Wonderful evening at Fisherman's wharf

3# Passing my drivers exam ... so many cheers ... totally felt unconditional support.

4# Boating to Heriot Bay .... Beautiful afternoon on the ocean ... amazing dinner

5# Saturday in Seattle before Seahawks season opener, sitting on Kurt's bench, lunch at Linda's, dinner at toules Pierre... shopping and ending up Ozzies, singing... and ending our evening eatting nachos at three am. Pure Joy

When things are difficult ... I think of the beach in Nicaguara ... I see the ocean.

Sweetest Day

I'm drunk with the feeling of freedom choices and options. My soul is smiling, and with a gang of cheerleaders I finally passed my drivers exam. I could not believe it ... I am finally on the road. The sweetest gift I have given myself lately. Over the past 16 months ... I've stuck it out ... lessons, awkward moments with driving instructors, angry female ICBC testers but after all ... here I am. I feel the small pieces are coming together. I am not sure what journey and where I am going but maybe the lesson is just have faith and believe in yourself. Truly I could not do this without all the support and patience of those who drove with me ... I learned that people want you to do good and have success. I did not trust those around me, but I learned that strangers can hold your best interest at heart. Have courage because everything is possible.

In this life ... I want to better for others, give back what others have given to me. I want my heart to be bold ... and brave. My days are always filled with small miracles.

Present Feeling.... Positive and Loved ... I hope to hang on to this feeling ... when I feel lost. I am glad my words and memories are always with me.

A Monday Postcard

Monday in June ... are truly beautiful. I enjoy my morning walk to work, following the rhythm of the city. Feeling the urban beat below my feet, I slip my coffee. Coffee has never tasted so good since moving to vancouver. I am slowing starting to get closer to drinking my coffee black. Not yet but soon ... I enjoy the bold favours in my mouth. My brain slowly waking up ....

The desk is still the same ... facing over the downtown horizon. The same nagging voice ... in the ear... that's all you did .. this weekend. Feeling some judgement from my co worker about my lazy weekend. I am feeling happy and secure right now. Does not mean I am fully engaged ... in my life.

Looking forward to my run ... in twenty minutes, laundry still spinning.

The skin on my arms dry ... itchy.

The Hero's Journey

Welcome back to feeling present, the way your skin feels on your body. The creases of your smile ... looking up to the sky. Everything coming into alinement. The world greets you and winks back.
The greatest journey I've been on is about growing my soul and love I have. I want to spill out of body.

This weekend I found myself on my mat, flowing to different teachers at different studios in the city. Last night the street so busy on West Georgia, cars and people passing me ... traveling to their desired destination as if they were following the beat of a Gipsy Kings album.. I stood at Cardero and West Georgia waiting for 240, under a truly beautiful sky. Sad to think our time in this city is short, tasting the movement and passion. All the sweetness is good.

I am feeling in love with options and week ahead. This week is a short for me and I leave for the island on Thursday. Each moment ... coming back to the present.


Notes to my Twenty Year Old Self

This note is dedicated to my younger self
The girl who writes poems on the backs of an envelopes

I want to tell her to trust Rumi and treasure him
He will always hold you when you sleep
Have courage and greet him with a smile
We take the Hero's walk together

He whispers to me
The world is alined for you
Choose faith, choose courage
Show me the creases of your smile
You are always loved
My Beloved

The Universe Gives Only What I Can Handle

The world is amazing place and the universe always provides what I need. This past month has been challenging at times but days are.

This week after feeling exhausted I finally went to see a chiropractor to give my neck some much needed attention. I have been feeling foggy and absent minded for several days. And I was not sure what I need, maybe some love and attention. So here I was laying on the bench ...having my neck cracked. All the noises and blockages ...removed.

My mind drifting .... :) I'm forever blessed, if that counts for something. I felt alot better.

I'm still dragging myself at work not doing my best work. Sitting and drifting.

I came across an old co-workers blog. I never knew she made such an amazing journey. I felt inspired by her words. Her belief her life could change. I need to focus on the changes I want. I need to map ...and live as if the world is built for me. Deep breath in .....

Deep sadness several weeks ago...my yoga studio closed. I find myself a yoga orphan ... and now attending YYoga. The studio did not disapoint. It has a beautiful location ... with bright open classes. Strange walking through the parking lot I had already decided this was going to be my new yoga home.  Already ... I was faced with a challenge ... I was late for the flow class and it was sold out. I felt discouraged but opened myself up to the possiblity things do not go as planned. I was placed into a core class 15 minutes later. First glance I was not interested in attending the class because it was unknown to me. I was afraid of looking awkward in front of the other students.  The deeper meaning of today was some of the best surprises is when things do not go as plan. Learn to enjoy the ride and the experience. Wow .. did I ever, and my back felt amazing.  Deep down inside ... I know I am always taken care of. The world loves me.

I am looking forward to seeing Rob again next weekend. I felt last weekend's visit was to short. It was difficult to go back to mainland, but my time is coming.

Handstands, lovebugs, breakfast in Paris .... I am a lucky lady to be loved so unconditionally.