My dance is daily, each morning ... my toes touching the ground, the room dark sun not yet risen. Here I am alone with my thoughts. Most morning I wake up alone. I sleep better myself, I've tried to sleep next to others but I am truly rested when I wake up alone. Why does feeling so rested and peaceful have to be so lonely.
I'd to share more co operation with the world and my current workplace. I'd like more forgiveness and the ability to accept others faults. Even if their behaviour is of a higher quality or enlighten. I'd share happiness and patience.
Today was the start of new year, and nine years with same company. I was surprised this morning to learn I have an extra week of vacation. What a real treat for myself. More time...to rest and more time for leisure.
Lisa and I brainstormed about going to Europe in the fall, we are both like small children at christmas time...debating over the sites in Paris....Opera at the Bastille and a river cruise down the Seine. I can not get to excited I have nine more months of other interesting fun and activities.
My juicer is due to arrive any day now. So excited but I have never used Amazon to purchase anything. I am hoping it works...and juice diet here I am come! Detox awesome! Health awareness everyone!
Still have not signed up for swimming lessons. No surf board purchased yet....one more day of terrible hair...i have a new stylist ...Lisa is now back in Comox...looking forward to meeting Tonya...so nervous with hair dressers...but the change could be awesome !
Thursday night is simple..and rainy .... Vancouver greets the world with a smile
To start of the year: I am calling out all the Assholes in my Closet...the men who no longer serve a purpose in my life... I need to clean this haus ... Men after today will never be mentioned in this blog again....
Phase: Hope you enjoyed your trip to Mexico ...I am glad you didn't call me when you returned to Vancouver. I am happier imaging you were hit by a bus ...or killed in gun fire by a Mexico drug cartel.
Keith: Married life and baby on the way ... happy for you and your teenage looking bride. I am happier you left life my life back 2010 leaving me free to move back to coast, I proud of you for have the courage to let me be myself even while traveling in South America
Paul: My park ranger now RCMP officer ..... I was way to young for you in 1999! I am glad you left my life and let me grow up into the person I am today. Hope your kind the local teenage girls in your neighbourhood ... they have dreams ... don't be the cop that silences them
Michael: You better be good to me .... (Tina Turner) ... I taught you good. I showed you the way ... and I hope you share my skills with your kindergarden teacher wife. Always remember LA and our road trip through Utah and Idaho Falls. You made me believe I could feel alive inside
Lindsay: We shared an apartment and cat, I loved the summer I spent with you. I learned I had an ugly temper and I was ashamed I showed it to you. You stopped loving me and believing in me. I pushed you away .... you stayed small ... you shouldn't live so small because you have alot to give. Wish you had the courage to be braver in life. I needed a braver man ... than you could be.
Grant: You fooled me better than anyone else, you made feel ashamed and stupid. I know ...there is a special place in hell for men like you. You lied to your wife ....you lied to me. I felt conflicted about married men. What happens to a man when he gives up on his family? What happens to man when he puts his own needs before his children. You hurt a lot people but your family hurts the most. Your sons live with your dirty secrets, lies and ugly past. They hurt more than I will know ....
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