After three days of yoga, I can finally feel space and lightness within me. The tightness is slowly melting away and my heart awaking to peace. The warm summer air and light is coming through my patio window and I feel peaceful and almost fulfilled. The sun much like Sunday yoga class is comforting and surrounded by summer's energy.
Last week I had a much need rest in Vancouver, the weekend was wonderful and I spend a blissful Saturday at the beach with Rob. It was the first time in months I felt peaceful and light. I can't believe how a simple nap on the beach changes the outlook of everything. I felt very blessed and special to attend the SA conference. I was more than happy to spend two nights at the Four Seasons in Vancouver :) It's a wonderful hotel, plus the bed was heaven! Sunday night Rob and I swan in the pool that is half inside and half outside. I'm not sure if I have future with Rob but I am so comfortable with him. I never have a restful sleep and somehow I feel like I belong in bed next to him. All things about last week were familiar and comfortable. Kitsalino, the beach, shopping on Robson street, Rob making dinner and a belini at Milestone. I miss the mountains. The view from the 29th floor of the TD tower is stunning!!!! It made me want to stay and not leave...is this my home??? Somehow the valley is always going to be home...but so 104th street in here Edmonton. I'm so confused. The west coast is always my smiling face. Maybe my soulmate is across the rockies and maybe he was always there. How could I have found a soul mate at nineteen. Rob might be more than comfortable couch. I do have to give him credit for being there for the last 11 years. Sometimes I image us getting married on the beach in a simple service with a small group of people.
This week I was more happier at work and more relaxed. The desk did not feel like an uncomfortable blister. I was visited for lunch by a client...I was happy to spend time with him. It's nice to know someone acknowledges the effort you make!
Summer is always a time...to grow...I am learning to let others in and see me...and let some go. I don't need to be so private and afraid of people. Maybe I learn to be myself. After all this blog is a reflection of myself in the most intimate way. I wear a *smile* this sunday, not a pretend one for co-workers, but one that comes deep from within.
I know...when I see the night sky...tonight, a comet has a tail like my grin.
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