Same Song, Different Location

Mondays are a regular theme. I today .. I felt like I crashed hard at work. My head spinning tired around 3. It was a busy day ... thankfully things are picking up.

I mind the gap between us and the wall that separates us. I'm learning to live with the silence. Im struggling to fit in ... in a work place with many have children at home. I do not feel I have anything to add to the conversation when they talk about their lives.

For a beautiful change, I'm looking out the patio window ... and I can see the ocean .. and everything around it. I feel lucky have a wonderful view and an door.

Georgia and I had a refreshing walk around the park. Sun shining down and everything around a glow. We are blessed to have this location.

I'm struggling with the next move ... I want to travel more .. the road is call me. I'm feeling stronger ... braver. I'm learning to not let others hold me back from being myself.

I'm seeing a client tomorrow .. I identity with her awkwardness  as .. I see a small part of her as me.

This week is jammed pack with clients and a road trip to Victoria. I'm feeling blessed with the hotel room but I'll miss my sweet little G. G the small blessing as introduced me to new friends .. I feel a lot better with her around.

So many discoveries coming this June ... spilling over ... finding myself slowing becoming grounded again. My feet can hold ... everything that come to it. So lucky ....

Feeling blessed twice today:

For changes at work ...
For the sun
Walking with Georgia
Cruising on the open highway
Friendship

XOXOX

The Dark Horse

I have feeling deep inside .... and wishes to make others believe it is possible to be braver and have better conversations. I want to share possibility of being open and strong. 

It's funny how one day in Vancouver can cost over $500! I walked the streets and had a beautiful lunch at the hotel vancouver. I know I wanted to spend lunch somewhere special and have a lovely meal. I never met my grandmother but she worked her whole life as maid there, somehow her spirt still lives in lounge. 

Georgia enjoyed her walk down west georgia street. She was a instant star, with sales staff wanted to help her and ensure she was having a lovely day. I miss her so much .. Rob kept her in the city for the last couple of days and the house is so quiet without her. The house feels like when I first moved in ... still and quiet. 

The summer months on the north island are always beautiful and the ocean looks like glass. I'm trying to be more mindful .... but this is difficult. I should just be myself. 

I'm restless again .... my mind wandering .... trying to grow, but I'm not sure ... where I am going. It's frustrating the inner me ... is struggling always looking growth. I can't decide where I belong .. and I find it hard to believe this is the role .... I be forever or at least till I retire ...??? Is this the end .... when I do find inner peace with myself. So I've decided this summer ... I'm getting back to my roots. 

Things to be grateful:

My job and paycheque .... now I finally have options. 

Georgia ... my little love bug ... she fills my life with endless joy

Stacy -- good friends -- hard to find 

leaving Edmonton -- and taking risks 

My life plan --