Dearest Deepest Self:
So aware of a zen like moment yesterday when a group of ten year girls made a horseshoe around me. The moment touched me, reminded me ... what it looks like to be free and not worry. What it is like to live with out any anger, guilt or trauma. What youth looks like .... I have not sent this face before . It was amazing to be reminded people feel this way.
I am finding a way to create balance in my life, my recent trip to Punta Cana has made this top of my list of projects. I came back to pile of projects at work ... and items that I needed to fix. On top of the stress ... I felt as if I had slipped into a coma last friday night. My mind was so exhausted..... attached to items I feel powerless to correct. Rob returned from the city ... and I unenthusiastic about his return. I do enjoy his company, however i felt myself feel and sink into the darkest part of my mind. Later Stacy reminded me ... I wasted my whole weekend. Reliving and thinking about things I can not control. So i found myself Monday ... looking at my calendar ... not waiting to attend the event I was invited to on Monday night. So i went ... and found my zen ....
So deepest self ... i am trying to regain ... myself ... I've slipped into a person ... I do not know. The universe is whispering in small ways for me to chance.
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