I'm my own hardest critic. I miss me ... some days. I feel confused ... the maze of paperwork. The confusion ... the fog... Why do I sound so negative. I'm not sure ... the path I'm on ... I want feedback ... grades ... numbers. I live for numbers and rankings. So I'm so hard on myself ... I need to stay in my own ... and keep my own pace. No more focusing on others.
The house is cold tonight .... still feels like winter is here. CR feels lonely without Rob, and I have another 5 days till he comes home. I've managed to keep myself busy with appointments. I need to find space and peace again. My mind wants to explore ... and be restful. I want to remember when life felt abundant. I miss the mat ... the flow .. the body untiring knots. The layers ... opening. I miss this ...
Back to self care. Back to find myself. I want my mind ... to feel free ..
i love the ocean in the morning. I wake up each day and I can not believe ... I am here ... this feels unreal. It's strange to think .. I've finally settled here after wandering for so many years. I'm home right where I am belong. I need to stick this to a post it on .. my computer at work ... I'm home!
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