Team Player

Long day ...woke on in the Seabreeze Inn on Salt Spring Inn, sleepy ... the sun came out on the last day on the island. I am not sure how to describe my weekend on the island.

We left friday afternoon for some much needed rest and relaxation. The weekend was a mix of emotional roller coaster. I am not sure why this happened if it was just the planets or locals, but we left the island with mixed feelings and kinda disapointted as we did not experience the island get away we had imaged.

Yesterday the rain drizzled and we drove from one end of the island to another to visit the local artisan farms by 3 pm we were kinda exhausted ... and needing a coffee and snack. The locals were kinda friendly depending on who you talked to... most I felt we were in their way.

Sigh..

The Next Generation

Today, I had a full circle adult real adult moment. I realized my eye doctor was younger me. I felt old ... it was a strange something kinda like a full circle moment, the doctor was younger than me and she had great hair. I had to pause .. I just felt old in the chair. I felt like I missed out ... maybe I should have studied more school. Strange to be sitting  in the doctor's office partially blind from the drops ... feeling slightly old. Welcome to being an adult, I guess this is the first of many more of these moments to come. To think about that is depressing and I am truly an adult.

Rob slept over last night, I had a nightmare about the local beach being invaded, I rolled over and hung onto Rob, but he is asleep. He left this morning for the ferry and I stayed behind. I wanted to be alone today and have a relaxing Saturday. No driving...no ferry, just the day in rainy North Vancouver.

I had a massage this afternoon, I'm not sure if it was relaxing but I felt ok after. I miss the other RMT, she truly an inlighted women. I look forward to seeing her soon.

My business plan is on my floor, I keep stepping on it. Countdown till March 28 ...hopefully the plan makes sense.

I am lucky ...today ..and my feet love me.. for the pedicure. The best thing that happened to me and my body. Oh the feet feel so much better.

Tomorrow is a new day. Looking forward to sun and Lisa, and veggie burgers. Oh the world needs more peaceful afternoons.

love my new toes and the free pizza slices at the grocery store. I have some harvati dill cheese for snacks.

Feeling sleepy, will sleep with a smile.

Love you Rob... truly a real friend and soul mate.

Marching On

Tasty drinks and food today after work. What a great way to end a friday sitting at the Cactus Club in Park Royal slipping mixed drinks and eating food way to salty.

This friday was an easy one ... laid back and slow paced. No panics or frustrated clients. I'm feeling blessed right ... Last weekend I rested in Campbell River with Rob, we were able to catch the last ferry and made it to his place by 12 am. It felt so good to wake up there, I can't wait till the next long weekend to enjoy some much needed rest. Sad to come back to the mainland Sunday night. Sunday we sat by the ocean and enjoyed the first sunny day of spring together.

My head cold came back again for the third time this winter. The flu is out to get me after giving me a break for several years. I struggled with my cold most of the week, so I'm looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow morning. Oh my bed feels so good when I'm exhausted. More reasons to feel blessed.

This month I am finally going to start paying off my student loan and getting my debts in order. I should have started this years ago but today is the day.

I am looking forward to a long weekend on Salts Spring Island at the end of March, looking forward to the spiritual time together. Yoga and tasty treats.

Lisa is coming out Sunday... and we going to the Na am in Kits, for the best veggie food. It's been over ten years since I have ate there so hopefully it lives up to the memories I have.

Tomorrow after sleeping in is self healing day with my eye doctor's appointment and a massage. Oh ...the joints can't wait.

Good Stuff is coming :) Thanks to Michelle for driving me today...it was so kind. Next week I have to do something thoughtful for her :)

Looking for Small Miracles

I've applied to open studies ... this blog I think takes most readers through my journeys in post secondary education.

I want to do something to help people. Counselling or Addiction help, i want to feel useful but I am not sure where to start.

Each day is a new day but I feel I am wasting my time sitting at home, not doing to much. Sleeping ... I'm sleeping my life away and it depresses me so much. I want to have a fuller life, I want to connect with people. I do not want to live like this ... anymore. I am lonely but afraid to let anyone in. Im scared to open up.

I look for the daily miracles what to do ...how to help... Sigh