Looking at Impossible, Learning to Love the Ugly Side

I've tried to love someone else latey and give apperciation. Today I have choosen to look within myself..deep within and all of the dark places I don't like to go. It's like pulling out an old dusty box from the attic, the kinda stuff you hide. The underwear you own and our embarressed off. This is the ugly I choosen to hide from those I have loved. Choosing to make today the exception, I am trying to reveal and not bury this deep dark embarressing secrets. I have spent to much time performancing and trying to be remain calm and perfect, instead of embracing my feelings and not stuffing them down. The performance is done. Weather in Vancity is rainy cold...it feels dark and cold, with some rays of light. Mostly yoga is restful and waking up in the morning.I am trying hard to not over think and just be myself. Ten more minutes till sushi. :)