Being Authentic

The most authentic I have been in years happened this weekend in Victoria. It was strange...is this what it feels like to be alive and let people know you. I'm not sure....but I did feel real...I can't believe I let the worlds mix...First Stacey met Lisa, it was strange at first ....because my Edmonton friends have never met my childhood friends....and than Stacey met my parents...and it was ok and I was accepted. I have never been so real in years...maybe at least 10 and I have not let anyone close to me....

I want to let someone love me...I want to feel things...instead of hiding....hiding behind pretending to be perfect.

My Vision for myself:

let myself be loved and trust myself....
I'm ok...the way I am....
Move to the ocean...you have the skills...they will want you... :)

I don't need to be perfect

Tea Party for 13

It is the last supper!!!! !13 of us came together at Rutherford house for tea and lunch. It was nice to see everyone again what a great crowd. The day before I did pottery with Anna, I'm not sure how my bowl will turn out...hope the colours look good. :)

I have been turning inside and spending more time alone less time with others. I'm not sure why...last weekend Stacy and I spent thanksgiving together and went to the southside to shop at Ikea and the Banana Republic outlet.

I have 5 more days till Victoria and 4 days of work this week. *sigh* nice to get out although I feel I have alot of stuff to do :)

October and fall is flying by....no snow yet...and I half way done my Psych course!!!!! :) Almost done this part of my life