Gratitude

I know, it has been a while. I have been a bad blogger, was I ever a good one? Here is my update, I still have not passed the DFC or OLC but I am at my deadline so here we go. I have no other choice but to go forward or it is over done completed. Anyway it is time to move on, Let go have clarity Release. Move forward from old mistakes. It is all inside of me.

So lets recap the fall events and highlights. Thanksgiving week I went to the States for a 9 days. It was a magical trip and very eventful one of the best times I have had lately. It was very refreshing. I love LA! I want to go so bad.....I really do. It was just exciting. Everyday was amazing. Except I did get involved with my co worker. I am not sure why and where this is going to lead me but I do feel chemistry but it will be short lived as he is going away in Jan. So I am letting go and knowing that our time is short and possibly currently over. I am sad but I know it is the best thing for both of us, as it is getting confusing and stressful. We are both being faced with the big questions of our of fantasy relationship. or maybe just mine fantasy relationship. I have learned one thing, DO NOT HOOK UP WITH CO WORKERS, they are work place poison! So here I am waiting for him to leave, so he can leave me first. Why can't I leave? Why can't I make up my mind for what I want! I don't know what I need or want.

I have started a Gratitude Journal, It is helping me keep peace of mind and reminding of all the good things in my life. Sometimes writing in it has been difficult but I am learning to invite positive energy into my life. I want good energies. I had my cards read again. I was told I have healing powers, which I do agree with. I do heal quickly, I have thinking of a career change something else.

I can't believe I fell in love with someone who I convinced to told to leave the country...aggggrrrr. I have a big mouth! But last weekend at the crown plaza was magical! So bad memories like that only last for a couple of hours! I love memories like that. I celebrate them and accept them and say good bye.

More Toxic stuff in my life, only gratitude I can do it!