Future Perfect!!!!!

Three Memo Notes to Myself

Do not worry, YOU ARE OK!
Do not worry, THINGS WILL WORK THEMSELVES OUT
Do not worry, YOU CAN NOT CONTROL THINGS YOU HAVE NO CONTROL OFF!

I am moving to 104th street week, it is a big move only because i have so much to pack. It is also kinda sad because i am leaving the apartment I have lived in for the last four years but it is time to go and move on...

I am excited but so exhausted this week. I don't really know what I am going to do..

I feel right now there are many unfinished things right now...things that are just out of my control. What to do...what to do...I must be patience I must be calm. I can not control these things. Trying to control them will be only made in poor judgement.

Lets recap this week, I wrote my DFC and I know I failed it..cause I did not study for it right :( I have peace with needing to rewrite it...I had a nervous breakdown last friday and panic attack cried on my friend Mark's shoulder...felt better..

Wednesday I went to the Rose and Crown drank to much....took at nap on a park bench by the hotel Macdonald. I felt somehow better but not to sure...Thursday night I gave someone food and myself food poisioning..Did not feel well after that night...it also left me really confused...what I'm I going to do about this shit????

Friday I went to see the Trews at Capital EX, and sat in my friend's Mike back yard and drank more beer till the early morning...Somehow I made it to spin class...and rode the bike barely hanging on...than...I had to get my hair done at Icon...it looks great but again I nearly feel asleep in my chair..

I have Nine Inch Nail tickets for tommorow night and I am so excited...it is going to be fun and more beer!!!!!!i have to watch my money cause I am moving and stuff...I am taking my power back..It will be ok...

My birthday is in a couple of weeks, I don't know whether to be excited or sad, I don't know what to think right now...I just need some time and some time off week..the end of august will be good..I will get to go home. I need to sleep. I feel so overwhelmed. I can do this...