i am not sure what to say but I here I am I have lost 25 pounds in the last 6 months and I now wear a size six...wow talk about journey. I have become a gym freak I go every morning at 6 am and run and run cause at this point in my life it is the only thing I am sure of. None of old clothes fit, I feel they reflect my old life and the place I was before....I don't know the person I was and I don't know the person I have become. I see a smaller verison of myself and I never believed this was going to happen to me...somehow I held on...and made it.
I have alot things to think about in the next month, I can finally move to whether I want...I am unsure of where I want to go and what job to take. God!!! So difficult I want some reassurance that everything will be ok...I want to know...I will make it on the other side.. it just seems everyday this is part of me that wants to jump infront of the LRT and does not! And this why I am running...cause the running keeps me sane!
Work has been good....last weekend Heather and I look all weekend for the book Skinny bitch and could not find it!!! Someone put them all on hold but Jacob has extra 50% off all sale items. we were so disapointed at least I was!!! I am trying to cut out dairy, I am just trying to be healthy person...I don't think I could ever go back to girl who eats pizza a couple times a week...I am just not her...oh and this why I had to start running. Do i sound crazy!!???
Heather wants me to go with her again to Kelowna for the September long weekend..I am not sure when I am going out to BC again...I should go out soon....oh my head is spinning...by the way my health is fucked too!!! grrrr...does it get easier...!!! Rob said life gets harder as you get older...and i never use to believe him but now I do...I think this past year has been one of the hardest..I guess growing up sucks. Come on Blue Skies....things are going to be ok..
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