I enjoyed my 44th birthday, it felt good and I felt special. This year has been a strange awful year and I feel I am slowing crawling out of it. Each month is a little better but still my soul feels strange and alone.
I finally had my surgery date in May and I feel a lot better. My body doesn't feel as exhausted and I am starting to come back to my skin.
Aging is strange and when do you truly feel like an adult? I still want to crawl up in a ball and cry.
Grief come in waves ... sometimes I feel I am over it and other times not.
I am book a trip to Dubai in December, I am excited and looking forward to the break. The beach and the different culture. I haven't traveled overseas since February. My mind needed break from travel. I haven't taken a break since returning from surgery.
44 steps to feeling better. Grief will get better
