They like to think the problem is me ... but we all know it's them. I feel like I am moving forward. It's strange to think I'm half way between my working life. When you are in 20's it feels so far away ... but here in the middle it's strange. I ask myself .. should I stay or move on. I can see the finish line but it's so painful running this race. I want to feel strong again ... the only way to feel strong again to leave. I'm ready ... it's taken a couple of months to come to this place .. and I no longer feel afraid. I felt terrified in September, I was so scare to alone ... but I can't stay here.
I'm at home this weekend with Georgia, Rob is working in city. It's cold and rainy. but I feel at home and happy. I know the problem isn't me.
