I'm in the middle of a making bigger chooses and decisions. I feel sad ... because I know things are going to change and this makes me sad. I feels like the end of era and a part of my life is closing and changing.
Portgual has been good for my mind ... and creating peace.
I'm feeling a lot lost. I wonder what it would be like to have a connection with family, I real relationship with my parents. My life has been a place where I needed to be sensitive to everyone else's needs but not my own. Will my life always be empty and confused.
My birthday is next week - 42. It's difficult to image being here, from the start of this blog ... so much has changed for me ... I age. This year I want to buy myself something special. This is the first year I really spent money on myself. I'd like to be kind to myself.
My forties have been very different than my thirties. I finally have financial stability - no debt. Stable life - somehow something feels missing. I'm not sure ...
