This year for my birthday I received courage. I didn't need anything material this year and after another year of covid, my birthday trip to Italy is still pending 18 months later. For this year ... I finally found confidence and courage.
My work was stolen by someone else and tried to pass it off as their own. The end result is the acknowledge of starting the work is mine however the other person still owns the relationship. I found myself overwhelmed on Monday with emotion and confusion and by Friday I felt comfort.
This year is great year of reflection, growth and slowing down. I have started to feel and experience life again ... the greatest gift of all and started using my voice. I'm learning to be direct when needed and forgiveness. The old me would try to stay angry and vindictive. The new me wants to progress and move forward - build the bridge. Two individuals will receive written letter of repercussions from corporate for their involvement. The misjudged the spirt of my work.
So what happens to a women, yes I feel like women now in her forties. I use to image I would travel more .. live more of globetrotting life, instead COVID has taught me to slow down. Enjoy small things and know I am loved.
I'm always surprised when people reach out and remember by birthday, I keep it small because I am scare of rejection. Left over from childhood fears when I didn't have many friends to invite over. Birthdays were simple ... with a cake. I'm feeling whole right now and loved.
This week has taught some people can make mistakes, forgiveness and compassion. The most important skill I learned was courage - I finally becoming more comfortable in my skin and this feels like home.
