It's the start of a new decade, finally blogger also auto corrects my spelling. Blog might start to make sense to readers or myself in my 80's.
A lot has happened over the last couple of months - we are leaving in a global pandemic, very strange, no travel and I have not left the island in over a year. I started getting comfortable with the idea of not traveling and staying still. I've accepted plans did not work out as I had hoped last year. Instead traveling to Europe for my Birthday I spent it in Port Renfrew. I didn't get emotional about turning 40 in August because of the global pandemic, getting upset about the end of my 30's seemed childish and silly. Things are what they are .... must live within the acceptance of limitations that are out of anyone's control.
I am still working and finally finished my final exam, it's a sense of relief and I can finally feel my body detoxing from the years of stress. I'm still in a state of shock, I can't really get over ... I do not have to spend anymore time studying and no more sleepless nights. I've spent the last year .. in grief and anxiety. The fear of losing my job and I career I have learned to love.
I lost control of a meeting yesterday, I let the client railroad me, however I wasn't prepared and didn't take the time ... or give them to the time to fully express themselves. Memo to myself stick the agenda and don't overbook yourself.
Georgia has tutor on her wrist, she's booked for surgery in twos, we are lucky it's not cancer. However for her own comfort it needs to be removed.
the world is strangely quiet, right now but I am feeling the love and comfort from outside and accepting inside. it's time for self care and taking time for my body, it's not health and it's healing. Goals for this year .. health and a love for my career which I haven't felt in several years. feeling lucky this morning
