Strange things are happening out there. For the first time in my life, I am stuck at home and can't move and travel anywhere. It's strange odd at times .. and stressful. My mind wants to go back to work but I am having a hard time relaxing, enjoying this pace and quiet time. Guilt is eating away at my mind. The guilt I am being paid to much money to work from home and not doing enough for my clients. Guilt I should be doing more, guilt I am not relaxing enough. The chatter in my mind is overwhelming. I try not to future think about what will happen in six month and I am finally accepting the next six months are not what I planned and will not be.
At the start of this year I wanted to travel to Europe for my 40th birthday but I have accepted this might not happen and I might not even be able to travel across the boarder. For the first time in my life - I am learning boarders are not always open. I find myself wishing for my grandparents guidance, they lived through the world and understood movements could be restricted and why this is important. We will live through this and be ok.
I want to leave with some celebrations:
Slow down for the first time in my working life: time to relax slow down
More time to spend with Rob and Georgia - we might not get this time again till retirement - lets celebrate these moments together
Health and still being employed: I am lucky to enjoy a pay check others are not as lucky
Lets enjoy this peace and isolation and celebrate each other
