I am Love

For the past week Rob has been staying with me in my place. It has been a while since someone stayed with me for more than a night. I enjoyed cooking and do all things domestic and we left for the island on friday. 

Today i am love ... deeply inside I am struggling to see to this right now but bravely I face tomorrow as I have like ever other birthday before. Grateful to be blessed. 

My skin is tanned from the sun, and I feel oddly older this year. Strangely I am not looking forward to turning 34, however I am hoping my luck will find start to change. Deep down inside ... i want to feel good about myself ... I want to shine ... bright . i want to be less critical of others ... complain about them less ... I do not want to talk negatively ... about others but I feel stuck. 

I am love ...

Rumi 

Listens to

Footsteps down the hall

He smiles when they greet him

We have the moon tonight 

Guiding us over the horizon

We lay down and

Pieces of my hair fall between in his lips

when Rumi sleeps

I am close my eyes ... and cry 

I am not the bride in the dress

He choose another 

The Way Back from Misery

I have these moments every couple of years. My head throbbing .... mind spitting in half. the first day of my cycle. I remind myself to forgive those who make me uncomfortable. I remind myself to find forgiveness for things that upset me. Here I am .... sitting in discontentment. I'm uncomfortable in my skin. 

So the slow ticketing clock .... 

I like to blog when I am in miserable inside and out. Deep down inside I have so much to be grateful for.