Welcome 2012, the year of change and awesome progression and forgiveness. this year I want to be kinder and more gentile to myself. 2012 year of accepting myself and creating some present moment awareness. Over the holidays I lost sight of being aware in the present moment and let of my fear of future over take me and resisted any kinda of holiday celebrations.
I think I was a little spoiled this year at christmas!!!! I did get some awesome gifts :)
So I have no longer have an investment advisor i work for anymore....it's kinda this pressure has been removed from me...and I just kinda relaxed and enjoy work alittle more right. I so looking forward to the future and I know I don't have much longer in Edmonton. I hope to be home by spring......although I have learned from the best in the business and I was lucky to know...these individuals... Here's to brokers....and Tuesday night yoga class...and rainy nights in January in Edmonton. There is no darkness at night when I make alittle space to let some light guide me home.
Before christmas I gave myself the freedom to be open and accepting of people. I left myself be myself with strangers and it was kinda fun and enjoyable to participate in new conversations and meet new friends. Somehow even with all of the disfunction of 2011...December ended with a bang!!!! and was very enjoyable.
Rob and I spent a afternoon snowboarding...it was great and he found the letters I had wrote over 10 years ago!!!!!!!! Somehow reading the letters reminded me of when I was naive and hopeful ...and me at the best ...before any self doubt about life....I want to carry that feeling into the present..and hold on it....no fear going into the future...and let the best of me shine through....I feel alot of love...and love to share and give back...Mentally I am finally back to a good place... :) The letters reminded me of person...who I had forgot...and sometimes wanted to forget...but I'm kinda proud of the 21 year me...and where I ended up...it's going to be ok...and I think she thought it was going to be ok...tooo...I loved the poetry in the letters...wow...how insightful...of me...I miss the girl who wrote poems...
This year .... I am excited and grateful for the changes and peace that is coming into my life...I know...I'm headed home...and truly loved and blessed each day and surrounded by the best... :)
Cheers to all of those who will never read my blog or know me....but I hope you feel the peace in this posting....
