Five Years of Outstanding Experience

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I cried today in my office, I do not think I am meant for this job. I shut the door, I think my skin needs to be tougher and I need to be stronger. I need to be better at my job. Im just not sure how to do that yet.....

Today i feel fat! I feel tired..and I feel like I am struggling.

My Christmas party was this weekend. it was ok...I enjoyed getting dressed up. Why today do
i feel abanded, why do I feel alone. I feel like i am on a road and trying to get there...when will i arrive at my place. I keep in mind I want to go Bali this year or Brazil...

Check list for 2010

Bali or Brazil

but really I want to go to asia

Change jobs...time for actions

Move in...time to advance the relationship

Find a deeper meaning get peace....

Save $25000.00

Pay back student loans

This my oath to me.....

i close my eyes and see south east asia...in my sleep....

Made it all the way to Ecuador

Hello Blog

It's me again....I can't believe I have been writing in for almost 4 years now....and it's been a year since I updated you....shame on me...Work has been good, this year. I think the year went well.Year end high lights, well lets start.....

Trip to South America!!! I made my dream come true..two years ago last January I saw a TV show about guy from Toronto who travelled to Montainia, Ecuador to surf. It sounded like a good idea so I decided to go....last September. I travelled to Argentina, Ecuador and Peru. Wow what an experience, the trip was meant to be about self discovery and I found my way back home. My home is here and my heart is here. The trip was great and I would go again in a heart beat. I'll never forget the beach, it meant to much to me. I know, I'm free....and I'm so lucky. My life has been blessed. No one ever reads this blog....but if someone does....they have to understand...how much my soul smiles....even though the dark moments...I know I'm taken care of....I'm provided for

Also my soul and my heart opened and I fell in love again. This time it is a more mature form of it. I met a wonderful man, I was set up by friends. His love is amazing and he loves me for me...no conditions attached. Each day since June 26 I have been so lucky...when I left for Argentina, I cried at the airport cause I was leaving him. The pain was terrible..and the separation from him awful...I do not want be away from him for that long.

The weather has turned cold again.....winter coats and mittens all over the street. The view from my apartment is all christmas lights. My partner and I are spending Christmas together with his family this year. I know this upsets mine....i would rather be here...

i was in Vancouver last month...for the weekend..weather was bad and rainy. I bought a new coat and some other things...hard to believe I use to live. Feels like so long ago. The rain brings me peace.

I have started trading again...and I have been doing well...profits are slowly coming in...this helps my income alittle bit. I have not had to struggle as much this year. Last January I decided this was year of me...and I was going to give myself a whole year to be all about me and do what I want. I can't believe it's almost over and all the things that happened this year so positive....