Well for the last of couple of months since feburay I have working out at the gym across the street and I have lost 11 pounds since starting. I feel wonderful and like a completely different person, for the last month I have going at least six times a week. Also I am running before work now so I have tons of energy through out the day and I am totally postive. I can run for least 45 minutes and not stop! The change in my body has been wonderful but has created a new crisis of pants that do not fit. I am almost no longer a size ten! I can't believe this day come, last summer I was so afraid I was going to end up fat and overweight but for the first time in my life I feel very free and comfortable with myself. I am learning to accept my myself and love myself. I know everything has happen for a reason and the past year was difficult and challenging but I feel like I made some good choices for myself. I know that I have changed and grown as a person. I have become more stronger.
I finally figured out what the secret was I just needed to be happy and make some life changes to create that happiness. I know I have alot more power over my depression and it does not control my life anymore. I am not even sure that I struggle with depression as I did in my early twenties. I finally doing things for me...and not doing things to please others or trying to make them like me. I like myself. I can't decribe how it feels not to be tired and exhausted. I just feel really good now...I hope it stays this way for a while.
Work has been going good as well. I am thinking of moving to Toronto in the fall, I think the change is what I need. I also feel that grow as a person. I am also looking at going to surf camp in South America. I need to pratice my swimming skills but I think this would be a wonderful chance for me to do something different and fun plus it looks super physical. (my body finally feels strong as well as my soul).
Things are going to be alright...I hope my friend is ok...her is not doing well but I am trying to support her. Plus I hope I can have coffee with my friend Jen soon!
